Announcement

I haven't written for weeks. I couldn't. Something truly miraculous happened. Several weeks ago I was just feeling really off, I had a big night out planned so decided to take a pregnancy test to rule that out before giving way to too many glasses of wine. Sam didn't want me to, he thought I…

Late night sobbing

Sam and I were chatting last night about a couple we know and how the husband has a new job. Sam asked me a question about them (I can't even remember what) but I responded with, 'oh that won't matter as she will be on maternity leave by then'. The comment stung  in my throat…

Facebook Creeper

I've had a good, normal sort of a day today. Work, seeing a friend for dinner, the usual. I was feeling in a happy place. Why on earth then after I left my friend did I decide to come home and become a Facebook creep? I'm still wondering this as I type this blog post.…

A year in review

In a few days it will be a year to the day since Sam and I decided to try for a baby. The fact that I do not have a little baby to hold in my arms or are anywhere near close to getting one is painful. In terms of many ladies trying to conceive…

91 days and counting

Day one of my current cycle was 1st December last year. Today is the first day of March which makes me 91 days into this current cycle. The cycle which refuses to end. Now I know I have PCOS this shouldn't surprise me, and yet it still does. I had decided 90 days was the…

When your brother and his wife announce they are expecting

About an hour a go my brother FaceTimed me. He, like me is a Brit living in North America too, but two plane rides away. My brother and I have a good relationship and I get on extremely well with his wife. It's not unusual for them to FaceTime me at the weekend, as they…

Footsteps for Fertility Foundation

I've just been looking up more about IVF online to get my head around exactly what it is and the procedure as that is more than likely the route Sam and I will be going down when we move back to the UK. During this research I came across this fantastic non-profit called 'Footsteps for…

The rule, not the exception

Another week in February, another week of infertility. I've been on an information gathering mission recently and came across a bunch of things regarding liquorice root and white peony for PCOS. I found this study 'Licorice roots reduces serum testosterone in healthy women'. I'll give anything a whirl, so I ordered some liquorice root and since…

A dedication to Sam

Sam and I don't really do Valentines day. We never have. There are card exchanges, usually (this year Sam gave me a Christmas card he found in the drawer...and they say romance is dead?!) but not flowers, teddy bears or over-priced restaurants. I'm fine with that, I definitely am a romantic, but I appreciate everything…

The last 74 days

This is an extremely overdue post. Christmas has come and gone and we are already approaching mid-February. I haven't blogged as I have tried to switch off for a while from the trying to conceive journey. It's not that I haven't been thinking about it, I don't think its something I can ever not at…